my ambition: get my LAE, move to German, play paintball for the rest of my life professionally, marry a German girl. buy myself a brand new camera for the unpredictable leisure and live happy ever after.


it's hard,losing what you love doing, what you been holding for,loosing what you've been dreaming.loosing it one by one, does hurt till the very corner of my heart.and the change continuously changed. but its for the better of the worse and a quote that exist in MELAYU simple thought..teach to be less advance, discriminate a capability of someone.






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so now its from another topic.




life is getting harder.but its okay, everything in life there's always a fall, and there's be always a way to climb back up.....




so i guess it's just that they dont like me anymore.yessss, i admit theres some culture change with in me.but it has already started way back then. i guess what the act you guys trying to tell me, is just  not my way to be understand it clear.but i always stick to principle, thus i can achieve what i dreamt of....to be unconscious for the pass, not to realize what was my capability, what im capable of was so discriminating a simple life that should be live.








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yoooo, its raya.its time for picture.ill upload the picture when its ready ..... stay tuned :)